Saturday, May 29, 2010

requiem...

'I mean; what are they going to say, man, when he's gone, huh? Cause he dies, when it dies, man. When it dies, he dies. What are they going to say about him—what; he was a kind man, he was a wise man, he had plans, he had wisdom—Bullshit man! Am I going to be the one that's gonna set them straight—wrong!...You."
that's goddamned right...

R.I.P.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

"Hi, I'm Rajon Rondo...
Chances are, you haven't heard of me. I realize it is difficult to keep track of little old me when there are LeBron Jameses, Dwight Howards, Kevin Durants, and Kobe Bryants of the worlds breathing all the air out of ESPN and TNT basketball coverage, but I've just been revitalizing a team of veterans into kicking the shit out of the Eastern Conference..."
i'm not one to boast (especially when i'm only half-right) but i did have the Celtics in this position when the rest of the NBA pundits did not. Rondo is a revelation, that in fairness, i never thought much of when he was attending the university of Kentucky, but after the Celtics won the title a few years back it became apparent that Rondo was becoming an elite point guard. During this years NBA playoffs, after almost single handedly dispatching of the Miami Heat and then burying the Hype in Cleveland with the help of my old friend KG, the Celtics are running over the Orlando magic, looking younger and healthier than they did when they won the title in 2008. In what could be the final run for the likes of Kevin Garnett, Paul Pierce, Ray Allen, and newcomer-though experienced Rasheed Wallace, Rondo is making himself into an absolute superstar.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

the first in line...

a lot can be said of Ronnie James Dio, I choose to defer...

"Always the one alone longs for mercy, the Maker’s mildness, though, troubled in mind, across the ocean-ways he has long been forced to stir with his hands the frost-cold sea, and walk in exile’s paths. Wyrd is fully fixed!"
Thus spoke the Wanderer, mindful of troubles,
of cruel slaughters and the fall of dear kinsmen:
“Often alone, every first light of dawn, I have lamented my sorrows. There is no one living to whom I would dare to reveal clearly my deepest thoughts. I know it is true that it is in the lordly nature of a nobleman to closely bind his spirit’s coffer,
hold his treasure-hoard, whatever he may think. The weary mind cannot withstand wyrd, the troubled heart can offer no help,
and so those eager for fame often bind fast in their breast-coffers a sorrowing soul, just as I have had to take my own heart —
often wretched, cut off from my homeland, far from dear kinsmen — and bind it in fetters,
ever since long ago I hid my gold-giving friend in the darkness of earth, and went wretched, winter-sad, over the binding waves, sought, hall-sick, a treasure-giver, wherever I might find, far or near, someone in a meadhall who knew of my people, or who’d want to comfort me, friendless, accustom me to joy. He who has come to know how cruel a companion is sorrow
to one who has few dear protectors, will understand this: the path of exile claims him, not patterned gold, a winter-bound spirit, not the wealth of earth. He remembers hall-holders and treasure-taking, how in his youth his gold-giving lord
accustomed him to the feast—that joy has all faded.
"And so he who has long been forced to forego his dear lord’s beloved words of counsel will understand: when sorrow and sleep both together often bind up the wretched exile, it seems in his mind that he clasps and kisses his lord of men, and on his knee lays hands and head, as he sometimes long ago in earlier days enjoyed the gift-throne. But when the friendless man awakens again and sees before him the fallow waves, seabirds bathing, spreading their feathers, frost falling and snow, mingled with hail, then the heart’s wounds are that much heavier, pain after pleasure. Sorrow is renewed when the memory of kinsmen flies through the mind; he greets them with great joy, greedily surveys hall-companions — they always swim away;
the floating spirits bring too few well-known voices. Cares are renewed for one who must send, over and over,
a weary heart across the binding of the waves.
"And so I cannot imagine for all this world why my spirit should not grow dark when I think through all this life of men,
how they suddenly gave up the hall-floor, mighty young retainers. Thus this middle-earth droops and decays every single day;
and so a man cannot become wise, before he has weathered his share of winters in this world. A wise man must be patient,
neither too hot-hearted nor too hasty with words, nor too weak in war nor too unwise in thoughts, neither fretting nor frivolous nor greedy for wealth, never eager for boasting before he truly understands; a man must wait, when he makes a boast, until the brave spirit understands truly whither the thoughts of his heart will turn.
"The wise man must realize how ghostly it will be when all the wealth of this world stands waste, as now here and there throughout this middle-earth walls stand blasted by wind, beaten by frost, the buildings crumbling.
The wine halls topple, their rulers lie deprived of all joys; the proud old troops all fell by the wall. War carried off some, sent them on the way, one a bird carried off over the high seas, one the gray wolf shared with death—and one a sad-faced man covered in an earthen grave. The Creator of men thus wrecked this enclosure, until the old works of giants stood empty,
without the sounds of their former citizens.
"He who deeply considers, with wise thoughts, this foundation and this dark life, old in spirit, often remembers
so many ancient slaughters, and says these words:

‘Where has the horse gone? where is the rider? where is the giver of gold? Where are the seats of the feast? where are the joys of the hall? O the bright cup! O the brave warrior! O the glory of princes! How the time passed away, slipped into nightfall as if it had never been!’

"There still stands in the path of the dear warriors a wall wondrously high, with serpentine stains. A torrent of spears took away the warriors, bloodthirsty weapons, wyrd the mighty, and storms batter these stone walls, frost falling binds up the earth, the howl of winter, when blackness comes, night’s shadow looms, sends down from the north harsh hailstones in hatred of men. All is toilsome in the earthly kingdom, the working of wyrd changes the world under heaven. Here wealth is fleeting, here friends are fleeting, here man is fleeting, here woman is fleeting, all the framework of this earth will stand empty.”
"So said the wise one in his mind, sitting apart in meditation.
He is good who keeps his word,7 and the man who never too quickly
shows the anger in his breast, unless he already knows the remedy,
how a nobleman can bravely bring it about. It will be well for one who seeks mercy,
consolation from the Father in heaven, where for us all stability stands.

The Wanderer—Exeter Book 975 A.D.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

rules of engagement...

i live by a few simple edicts...

Silence is foo. And it is...

Righty-tighty, lefty-loosey. Its all you ever need know...

If i have to follow the rules, everybody has to follow the rules...

There is a lot of yammering about banking reform these days, probably because there is a need for banking reform. Serious reform. Of course, the Hamilton Hawks (named after Alexander Hamilton) will tell you that there is a need for a strong central bank that answers to no one. While us Jeffersonians (and you know how i feel about Thomas Jefferson) point out over and over (and over) again that money=greed=power grab. In other words give 'em enough rope and the banking industry would rather hang us from the Statue of Liberty (that's what we get for accepting a gift from those socialist French pigs!!) then allow for some regulation over how wealth is managed in this country...

There is a scene towards the end of the film Platoon when bodies of dead Vietnamese are being summarily shoveled into the craters formed by the recent napalm drop. We learned that when left to their own devices the Federal Reserve, and the banking and finance industry will bury this country in the craters left behind by their carpet bombing of toxic derivatives and rampant borrowing. Changing the rules of economics to suit a profit margin almost cripples the entire banking system, but instead of jumping on the grenade, Wall Street decided to throw it back, except it landed in our laps, no pin, no chance. Capitalism run amok...

i would not consider my self a socialist. I'm a pragmatic anarchist, which is to say with all things being equal there should be no rules, except that i know that human nature will facilitate the need for regulation, so, henceforth...

The idea that regulating the Health Care Industry or the Pharmaceutical Industry or the Automobile Industry and especially the Banking industry would reek of socialism is a pathetic attempt to cloak the fact that all of these industries have taken taxpayer money in the past year whether they needed it or not. Is that not socialism. Well, i've been through this...

i was enjoying a martini and some mac and cheese a la Famous Daves when a Nicaraguan gentlemen and i struck a conversation about the Mets. It slowly developed into him railing into socialists in this country. How we are already socialist, giving hand outs to the unemployed and those in the throws of poverty. I asked him, isn't it welfare when banks accept taxpayer money to stay afloat from a free market tidal wave? He shrugged me off. It occurred to me that he was of age where he would have been a teenager in the 1980's. Probably living poorly in an urban area of his home country when the big bad Reagan machine came in to wipe the floor with the evil communists. Like they were the savages forming death squads. The Reagan administration used cold war fear to make us believe that communism and socialism would ruin this country and the world. This gentlemen drank the kool aid. When he said to me that he watched "all the news anchors—Hannity and Glen Beck" as if to say "Country and Western," i quickly looked for an exit strategy and broke north, like Oliver's neck—how apropos...

You see, what most people don't understand, other than the fact that this is a Republic and not a democracy, is that we live 75% or so of our lives like socialists. Ever time you buy a beer for someone and in turn that person buys you one back along the way, that's socialism. When you pass that joint, its socialism. Borrow that drill, cook that meal, shovel that neighbor's walk, or help that person on the side of the road change that tire—socialism. Its the bar that's capitalist, the dope dealer, the Home Depot, the restaurant, the kid looking for $10, or the wrecker that is called. We as a people are inherently socialist. It is simply the structure of our society that is capitalist...

now there's nothing wrong with making a buck. There's nothing wrong with making a lot of bucks, but when there is an opportunity to fix what's wrong, chance to repair a system that has collapsed, why not? What's wrong with a little regulation? Regulation makes sure the pipes don't burst, the roof doesn't leak, your 401K doesn't disappear and YOUR OIL TANKER DOESN'T EXPLODE AND SPILL TONS OF OIL INTO THE GULF OF MEXICO!! Like New Orleans hasn't already seen the ass-end of governmental reform, now they have a puddle of mud the size of Delaware heading towards the French Quarter—WHO DAT? Oh, its just Standard Oil, sorry...

A year and a half ago there was the equivalent of an oil spill on Wall Street. One year and a half after a global economic meltdown we're still wiping off penguins. What's wrong with a little regulation? Would you rather a little revolution?...

There are 41 Senators that would like you to think that shoring up credit card interest rates, making it affordable to buy a home, and having a safe place to invest your money and allow it to grow rather than be—wait for it—regulated through countless fees and conditions—is evil and utterly socialist. That any reform on the banking industry will lead to the strangulation of your freedom, the formation of death squads, or statues of Lenin being erected in town squares all over America. Heaven forbid Lenin takes the place of the John Calvin statues they have planned to erect or their secret plan to replace the Jefferson Memorial with one of that heretic and SOCIALIST FRENCH PIG—how's that for irony Texas?...

The era of Reaganonomics is over. It failed. And it was an epic failure. Alexander Hamilton is dead and buried a block and a half away from the scene of the crime, but Jefferson...

Jefferson Lives!...

Let's move on up...

Thursday, April 22, 2010

night of the living baseheads...

Ladies, if you see this guy in a bar/club/dark alley, do yourself a favor and walk the other way...

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This is the culture we have wrought. Jocks with wallets full of excuses and entourages full of yes men. Gun-toting, making-it-rain attitudes all the way to their vehicular manslaughters. Let's stop acting like its ok that people like this exist. Moreover, let's stop acting like its ok that people raised people like this. Yeah, Mr. and Mrs. Roethlisberger, you are responsible. Mr. and Mrs. Vick, Woods, et al. All the coaches boosters, drunk vagrants who used to be someone, back when. Every AAU coach with a shoe deal in his or her back pocket. Every Uncle who ever told you where the money was, when he was taking it behind your back. Every teacher, guidance counselor and other school administrator who turned a blind eye for the sake of the golden child. You are all to blame...

the team owner who has taken every step to ensure the TV slot, fannies in the seat, a beer and hot dog for each hand. Laughing all the way to their luxury box...

all of us who turn on the TV, buy the ticket, or the jersey. All of us who let this culture run out of control, whether under the Friday Night Lights, Sneaker Camps or Sunday morning gag-a-thons. Its our fault as well...

its getting harder and harder to enjoy the games i love. But when i look beyond them i see the same patterns in everyday life. The double standards, the sweeping under the rug and the looking the other way—the getting away with murder. This is the culture we wrought for ourselves in this land of the free and home of the brave. It seems you don't have to smoke crack to be a basehead...

how low can you go?...


Monday, April 19, 2010

silence is foo...

is that a peep from the constellation? Not really—'tis but a whimper...

i guess, i've been on vacation, except i haven't been anywhere, done anything of note or cared much about letting you in on the details. That happens. Silence is foo...

occasionally i submit and idea or two under the moniker Tavares Lives! here. Its baseball season so i suppose i'm in early season meditation. It stands to reason that most of my work would channel there...

besides that I'm looking for ways to expand the constellation—take it global as it were...

we'll see, there's work to do, and miles to go before i sleep...

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

midnight movies vol 3...


alms

i glided like the flame-sparked fuse on a stick of dynamite,
i was screaming acetylene at you, did you hear me?...
i would break your neck with the pure sonic force, call me Blackbolt with a throat full of fire—
its the principle...

you think that's harsh, but what good are you? selling alms from the poor...

there's no promise you'll get yours...

the wheel goes round like the man sang and such and i'm watching, but there's no telling...

roses on a mosaic, he's still waiting...

i'll probably wait forever.